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Monday, 11 March 2013

Withdrawing

I want to withdraw/dropout of school, I can't take the complications anymore. Every time I think things are going well, something happens and jeopardizes it all. I am just miserable at this point...I hate the administration, I just want to finish my degree and leave, I don't even care what my GPA is at this point, I just want to leave. I can't really take it here anymore, I'm just stuck, I want to just take the liberal arts credits I gained and just go for my bachelors already(which I can do) the only people who would be upset would be my parents. Mostly because I wouldn't have a graduation, and they would try to get me to transfer to a school that has nothing to do with my current or future major.





I really can't take another complication....



I even googled how to drop out of college-I'm really that desperate at this point, and I found an article by the NY times, it was an interview with a college dropout and at the bottom there was a list(well two). You should drop out of college when... and You shouldn't drop out of college when...



  Have mercy please God erasus(Erase*us)



I highlighted the ones that apply to me.

You might want to stay in school if…
You’re happy there.
At school, you find yourself happy more often than not. Far from discontent with the system, you thrive in it. Lecture-based learning may not work for other students, but it works for you. You consistently feel inspired and excited to go to class.
You’re developing skills you’ll need for your future career.
If you’re a humanities student who finds yourself making leaps in terms of critical thinking, stay in school until you can replicate that progress outside of classroom. If you’re a student who needs access to specific resources (e.g. you’re a science major with lab work), stay in school until you can find other ways to get the materials that you need.
You’re learning a lot, and while a degree would be nice, it’s not why you’re there.
You see college not as a means to an end, but as a legitimate way to learn new things. If you feel intellectually stimulated (and wouldn’t if you were a self-directed student), don’t drop out. This path is working for you.
You got a good price for it.
It’s not unreasonable to stay if you’re attending a good school on a scholarship. Just make the most of your college experience — Scott Young wrote a great article about this here.
You like the structure that college provides.
Having a school environment can be powerful. It’s easy to stay on track, make friends, and understand what you have to do to achieve your goals.The prospect of being on your own is scary; the pressure of knowing that your education lies in your own hands makes opting out of the system even more difficult. Stay in school if freedom sounds to you more paralyzing than it does empowering.
You want to be a doctor or a dentist.
If you’re pursuing a career in a highly regulated field, dropping out is not for you. There’s no way around it — for the safety of the public, these professions simply require a degree. Fun fact though:if you want to become the next President of the United States, then yes, you can leave.

Everyday I wake to more stagnant bullshit

You should consider dropping out of school if…
You’re miserable. 
You feel increasingly frustrated and disillusioned by the homogeneity of your peers. You’ve read and fervently agree with William Deresiewicz’s “The Disadvantages of An Elite Education.”
You can use other resources to develop the skills that you need for the future. 
There are cheaper ways to get the education that you want — whether it’s through MOOCs (Massive Open Online Courses), alternative school-like programs, or your own initiatives. In this case, college isn’t cost-effective, and you should really check out the UnCollege resource page.
You’re not really learning, and you’re only there to get a degree. 
If your plan is skip class, get straight Cs, and do the least amount of work possible to get a degree, you need to seriously reconsider how you’re spending your time. There are more effective ways to get credentials (e.g. by building an online portfolio of practical experience). You might even learn something along the way — something more tangible than the ability to cram for finals exams.
You’re piling on student loans that will limit your career choices to investment banking (or something equally soul-sucking).
This one is self-explanatory.
You crave the freedom of designing your own path.
You know you can learn faster and more effectively outside of the classroom. You feel limited by college if anything; even actively participating in out-of-school activities isn’t cutting it for you.
You can hack your way into the field you want to work in.
In fields like entrepreneurship, computer science and art (of all kinds), your ability to execute your ideas is infinitely more important your ability to brag about where you graduated from. You should be getting as much practical experience as possible.


When I escape it there's more stagnant bullshit.

All the complications are so depressing...I can't even drink on a regular make them pass by and relax more over it, which is frustrating beyond belief. It is my last full semester in this program(I'm not counting the two classes in the summer) but it doesn't seem to want to end...I told myself, I would do my best this semester, and raises my GPA through getting Bs and As in my classes....at this point I'm getting Bs and Ds......I just keep letting myself down, I'm finishing work ahead of time only to have a computer error either delete, corrupt or not attach the file. Me being an idiot and working on so many things I forget to back up 40% of the time.

Lost in this place It's such a waste, I can't watch things further complicate.....

I don't want to let my profs. down either, they're putting so much faith in me this semester to pass all my classes and show that they didn't just go through all the trouble of pulling strings for a total idiot that is just going to fuck everything up. So far I'm not doing to well on not showing that....
I keep letting myself and others down at this point, if I just stopped everything and went to work, then my bachelor's I feel it would be better....I would not longer be letting people down, my profs. are already encouraging me to drop their courses so they don't have that random D student bringing the average down... I doubt it would matter either.....


I hope I don't bore you while I whine about it, I hope you won't be sadden while I cry about it.....





INTERVIEWS(ARTICLES)


http://www.uncollege.org/blog/2012/12/16/should-you-drop-out-of-college-a-dropouts-perspective-2/ <-article
http://www.uncollege.org/blog/2012/12/19/an-interview-with-graphic-designer-c-j-williams-2/ <- interview with a graphic designer...I understand his decisions....

I want to withdraw from everything in my life, just drop it all before I make things any worse than they already, go to Canada, start at York/Seneca then work and be away it all...I need to stop letting so many people down....

5 comments:

  1. Awe :( Bret I feel like you can do it! I' not happy with my college experiences either, and I still have 2-3 years of it! I think one sem and a summer sem is worth sticking around in. Fuck what other people think or your professors. It's not their life, who are they to judge or make you feel bad.

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    1. >.> its really hard though, because its like it never ends, if i fail, I repeat almost a full semester of work, i just want to be done with it.

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  2. You're a strong independent woman!

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